Is Jesus truly my BFF (Best Friend Forever)?
This is one of the questions I have been wrestling with lately. I would love to say yes, and it would be easier to say yes. However, it would not be true.
This conversation with God started when He pointed out to me, that if I wanted my prayer life to increase, I would have to learn to be, “in the world but not of it.”
I thought I was doing a pretty good job of not being worldly. But, I have realized this evaluation is only when I comparing myself to other people around me. It for sure is not true compared to the Disciples, the Early Church or even others who are truly seeking Jesus and His Kingdom today.
I am recognizing that there are many times that I choose the world instead of Jesus. Instead of spending time in prayer I often choose to look at Craigslist or Facebook. When I could be reading my Bible I often choose to spend time on my phone or listen to music.
The problem is that when I choose these other things, instead of Jesus, I am actually distancing myself from someone that I should have as my best friend. I should desire to know Him more and to become closer and more trusting in Him and in our relationship.
Because, I choose the world instead of Jesus, I wonder how many blessings I miss. I wonder how many adventures I have not gone on, and I especially wonder how many opportunities of spending time together I miss.
I realized a few days ago, that I have allowed myself to come to a place in life where I don’t really expect much from God. At least not what I should… I often find myself making deals with Him and asking for things with a wrong and doubting heart.
It is no wonder my prayer life struggles. I am realizing that I am usually more interested in the world and what it offers than in spending time seeking the Kingdom and time with Jesus.
Many would say that I just need to spend more time reading my Bible and praying. That has become the standard Christian answer to every problem. What I have realized though is that if my heart isn’t in it, I won’t last long at doing either one.
I am looking at doing something deeper, like falling in love with my Savior even more. I am wanting to rekindle the faith and fellowship of old. I am believing 2016 to be a year of deeper, and deeper relationship. I am praying for Jesus to help me to find that passion and faith that I have had at different times in journey with Him.
This is not something that I can do by myself. I have to make different choices in what and where I put my priorities. However, if I can’t fall madly, completely in love with my BFF (Best Friend Forever) it won’t be long and the world will entice me right back into its grips again.
I am really excited for this coming year… I am most excited to see what increasing my desire for Christ and His Kingdom will bring into my life and heart!
Happy New Year! I am praying for each of you, that you will choose to find a deeper relationship with your Savior. I am hopeful that 2016 can be the year that the Church comes alive, and decides to really take a hard look in the mirror and reflect the desires and will of the Kingdom. I am believing for greater Kingdom work, along with greater vision and faith to complete the things that are on God’s heart.
Most of all I am hopeful that the days of old, the faith of old and the confidence that I once had in my BFF will be rekindled in the coming days.